Moving on.. Nothing to see here...

So yeah, lately I've been really trying to get back in to the groove.

But it's been really hard, because I've lost everything that matters in my life, everything I wanted. Even tried to compromise in life to make things right for myself and only to fail? Even though I fail I still get back up. It’s really depressing for me because I really felt like I have failed by allowing these people in my life, failed because people I've trusted not only back stabbed me in life but instead of creating a true partnership decided to poison my life as if to only benefit themselves. It's like don't people believe in Karma? Don't people have souls? or even a "thought" to really care in life? Apparently I guess not.

Life has really got me down and depressed. I feel like I am stuck on a sofa with limited sleep every night. I fucking hate sleeping on the sofa but what else can I do? it's like Every-time I trust someone or give trust to someone they somehow change as soon as I allow them. Like Michael McGee I trusted him and step aside my goal for RavenPC in Redmond Oregon, I decided to *merge* my idea with his. The way he made it sound was I had no other choice but to move in before I can get officially paid. I felt completely forced to do so, and when I did I was treated as a slave instead of being paid 1/2 of the earning profits. I was manipulated different, when I was supposed to be a partner my voice didn't mean shit especially for trade out. That is when I learned fuck this shit, no matter how much money we er I mean he makes I will never get my part. It's like fuck him he's fucking Looney Toons. On top of that, he is a Con-Artist and a very manipulative sociopath. I just wished he was more of a real *honest* guy then he put off to be and stop being so plastic with who he really is. According to the state of Oregon slavery is allowed.

But if you really look at it, this is all because of my ex-wife. My only fault with her is that I trusted her when she wanted me to trust her, I love her even with the mistakes she has done. I do what a real respectable man does love and cherish your wife.

Only thing to really look forward to now is drift, it's the only thing that makes me happy anymore, I can care less about everything else and even that is failing me. I hate life and I hate everyone at this point. I could care less about people at this point, I am very tired of being used and abused especially for what I do and the effort I put into things so at this point in my life fuck everyone.