kallador's blog

My most recent times about moving back to a department I shined the most as it all started with a question in which turned into an opportunity. Today is one of the many days I get a chance to shine? Na instead the shining goes back to original tech that handled this department, working as a team failed when the one Manager left and this department got swallowed up by another team turning this into a nightmare. Granted if I would have gotten supervisor position back in Jan of 2016, this wouldn't happen and would have fought to keep it separated and more team and direct paced. Now that supervisor got manager and this area moved around and now I feel more isolated with my job and no room for advancement or improvements. The dude who got Management position from supervisor has no idea what he is doing and that supervisor got dissolved. Going back to the roots and letting go of a no direction position at one point had a direction. As of today I really see the light of the choice I m...

I am not sure when being a leadership couch for money on the side counts as a leader or a manager in this case. Far as I see it, you have done nothing for the past year and I would have made a huge difference. But I get it, I wasn't in that inner circle so even though my interview a year ago was out of the park it never counted. From not just my point of view but others as well as I get asked daily where is my boss? and where is this guy? there is no set of communication and it seems abuse of power. Now the one who fights for the circle is gone the damage is already been made, even after a year I still don't even know what you do instead I just do my job and other peoples jobs for them stepping on toes making myself more successful at what I do.

Well this will be the last time I will ever vote for these elections ever again. It is not worth my time, the machines are outdated and sketchy the people are rude who you go up and get the card from all they do is scan your booklet and doesn't verify any details of who I am as I just felt like I was just hurry up and do it and get out feeling. This is why I have chosen the Anarchy Party. Fuck everyone that is running and the stupid supporters who are basically trash and it is the media and other trash who has to divide this country. From when I signed up for voting at the store till the day of the elections I have blocked over 1,000 numbers all political robo calls, I had to black list over 1,000 emails from email I keep getting on various vote for this and that the miscellaneous people coming to my door at the weird times and harassing me why I need to vote for this party vs that party. Social media friends unfriending friends because of the party they vote for. In 2012 it ...

Every week it is the same old story I hate it and it really wants me to get the rest of my stuff, change my number and disappear No concept on money None what so ever, all my money is accounted for I can't keep forcefully lend you money. It is starting to really piss me off. My paychecks is going towards car and house payment and then I am broke stuck living on the dollar menu. But it keeps adding up, every weekend I end up spending 100-200 on them and food and cigs medicines and always a promise to pay back. Obviously I don't get paid back and I'm stuck unable to fix things I need. No concept on things of need vs wants. I need but you beg and make me feel like shit to a point I want to write you off and that hurts me.  My anger is growing every time you ask me for money I don't have and beg for it, as if I had it. I sacrifice a lot because of your fucking bullshit and you care very little of my well being. I need teeth, I need glasses, I need to start doc hunting...

Lets just say, even in IT there is pawns, I find myself in this case that I am one of the 2 golden pawns and seems that I have made a promotional deal that seems to be hard to break. When there is 2 opportunities, I applied for them I get interviewed. What really gets me is the latest rejection, The previous one was also a walk in the park as well but I got denied for someone with lesser skill than I have. That is when I noticed, when I walked in with the interview and the excuse that I didn't get it was my resume was the determining fact which is I find was BS. my resume is good, it has all the key focus and features that any one likes to see. I was interviewed at that time with 3 different people 2 in this case didn't want me to leave my golden pawn status. So this second interview comes around for the second job I wanted to apply for to move out and away from being this golden pawn, This time I was interviewed by 2, the 1 in question is I had a feeling didn't want me...

This is one of the days, I feel like a broken ATM machine.  Everytime we fight, it is over about money I have to make payments to my car, the house, I have bills... No is a word that doesn't seem to be taken or even heard of. I say it strongly because it is bullshit that I have to repeat myself over and over again when I am broke really really broke that I am the bad guy because I am just an ATM machine as I feel like I am one if they don't get what they want the bad guy finger is pointed at me. I get threats of multiple different things, stupid actions happen to attempt to call me out as if I am lying or bluffing at this point.  One month or bi-monthly I will spend over 500 in money to them, rather it is bills or the little things like food cigs and so on. That hurts alot on my end as I could be using that money for my health, to better my image, to better my career.  But instead I sit here broke, pissed off at them because they wont stop and wont take no for an answer...