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A life reboot, is something i need.

Well, I am going to recap my life if I could reboot, I've survived cancer, horrible decision s my parents made growing up in the ghetto. There is alot of regret in life I should have done and if at one possible moment I could wake up being 16 again,  or even younger with my knowledge I would avoid losing my teeth and anything and everything else in my time with cancer. I would be a much different person today,  I would have made a different move in my life, I would have broken free at the age of 18 not at 30 after my divorce from my ex wife. I just wished I woke up, in the roach infested room at 16 and remember this life and change my life from there.

I cant shine this way...

My most recent times about moving back to a department I shined the most as it all started with a question in which turned into an opportunity. Today is one of the many days I get a chance to shine? Na instead the shining goes back to original tech that handled this department, working as a team failed when the one Manager left and this department got swallowed up by another team turning this into a nightmare. Granted if I would have gotten supervisor position back in Jan of 2016, this wouldn't happen and would have fought to keep it separated and more team and direct paced. Now that supervisor got manager and this area moved around and now I feel more isolated with my job and no room for advancement or improvements. The dude who got Management position from supervisor has no idea what he is doing and that supervisor got dissolved. Going back to the roots and letting go of a no direction position at one point had a direction. As of today I really see the light of the choice I m

Leadership...

I am not sure when being a leadership couch for money on the side counts as a leader or a manager in this case. Far as I see it, you have done nothing for the past year and I would have made a huge difference. But I get it, I wasn't in that inner circle so even though my interview a year ago was out of the park it never counted. From not just my point of view but others as well as I get asked daily where is my boss? and where is this guy? there is no set of communication and it seems abuse of power. Now the one who fights for the circle is gone the damage is already been made, even after a year I still don't even know what you do instead I just do my job and other peoples jobs for them stepping on toes making myself more successful at what I do.

Yay, trump is president..

Yeah, I voted for him and I am the Anarchy party. I only voted mainly because what shocked me was the immigration plan he has going on and now there is fear if it does happen now including vegas will be hurting. I don't see that, all I see is struggling family's looking for a job can now find a job that is here legally. All I see is my ex-wife undocumented or on expired documents for over 10 years now gets deported finally and Karma is a bitch. Do I care about anything else? na, I do like how the chaos that has rise up with the leechers who is afraid of a real change. No more free rides as I am a working class busting my ass off for things while people are getting shit and buying 80"inch tv's on their welfare checks and buy and sell funds from their EPT cards. Exciting times are coming, America needs a business man as a leader a CEO and that is how AMerica will be lead by a real CEO as we are allready have new relationships building and he isn't even sworn i

Voted for my first time and it was horrible.

Well this will be the last time I will ever vote for these elections ever again. It is not worth my time, the machines are outdated and sketchy the people are rude who you go up and get the card from all they do is scan your booklet and doesn't verify any details of who I am as I just felt like I was just hurry up and do it and get out feeling. This is why I have chosen the Anarchy Party. Fuck everyone that is running and the stupid supporters who are basically trash and it is the media and other trash who has to divide this country. From when I signed up for voting at the store till the day of the elections I have blocked over 1,000 numbers all political robo calls, I had to black list over 1,000 emails from email I keep getting on various vote for this and that the miscellaneous people coming to my door at the weird times and harassing me why I need to vote for this party vs that party. Social media friends unfriending friends because of the party they vote for. In 2012 it

Here we go again..

Every week it is the same old story I hate it and it really wants me to get the rest of my stuff, change my number and disappear No concept on money None what so ever, all my money is accounted for I can't keep forcefully lend you money. It is starting to really piss me off. My paychecks is going towards car and house payment and then I am broke stuck living on the dollar menu. But it keeps adding up, every weekend I end up spending 100-200 on them and food and cigs medicines and always a promise to pay back. Obviously I don't get paid back and I'm stuck unable to fix things I need. No concept on things of need vs wants. I need but you beg and make me feel like shit to a point I want to write you off and that hurts me.  My anger is growing every time you ask me for money I don't have and beg for it, as if I had it. I sacrifice a lot because of your fucking bullshit and you care very little of my well being. I need teeth, I need glasses, I need to start doc hunting

All Lives do matter....

Just watching the news and seeing  Marissa Jenae Johnson co-founder of the racist movement called "Black Lives Matter", Really, if you take one big look at it looking outside in, It is extremely racist and it's nothing but HATE breeding HATE and I see the news alot lately and all of a sudden it's riots. When people die, they die. This happens alot but people have to make Martyrs out of the ones of the human of a special "color" tone of their skin.  As hate keeps getting fed, I am not white I am partial Black Foot Indian also known if you knew your history "Native American" just wanted to clear this up before I am automatically classified as a racist. I am very successful in my career and it's stupid for even the "black lives matter" has to be formed it is no different than any other type of "hate" groups out there. It's pure hate, it's evil, and yet we still let this go on? People are not dumb they do see right thr